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YTD WAS AN EXTREMELY FUNZOR DAY :D

It's 3pm (Saturday) now, and I woke up just an hour ago (: haha, had to catch up on lost slp over the wk (:

Anyw back to YESTERDAY :D 290509 (:

BESIDES THE FACT THAT IT WAS THE LAST DAY OF SCH, it was also ZACHARYMOKZHENYANG'S 18th BIRTHAY, and APOLLO FC HANDOVER :D

So hahahahahahahah we had handover at ard 430pm, met Amanda for the very first time and passed her the super DUA file, and a gift haha! (full of sec-tressy stuff) :D JIAYOU GIRL; make APOLLO prouddd! :D I know you can do it! :D

and THANKYOU JASMINE :D for the beautiful board which now hangs on my wall (:

Then, we went to A14's clsroom to talk talk with the 4 junior AICs, the others had to go off somewhere mm :/ it was pretty fun, and I just really wanna wish the juniors the best of luck in their term! (: No doubt things will be hard, but with passion and grit, and a firm sense of belief, you guys will be able to go the distance and bring Apollo to soaring heights (: cont' the legacy left by ur seniors! (: JIAYOU! (:

So after tt we went to mokzy's house to celebrate his bd/last day of sch :D played guitar heroes! :D mok's house is zuper cute, hahaha there's this family portrait hanging in the living room HAHAHAHA mok is super duper cute. resembles how he looked like when i first saw him in hc one yr ago :D

So we GH-ed, and msned :D and cut cake! :D his mum and dad are very sweet lovely people (:

took a taxi home (TY TLS for the $10), and reached home pretty late :D

ahhhh but an eventful LDOS nonetheless :D (:

woohoooo! i'll miss 6V and fac com and badrec tonnes in the hols ):

Yufong is, indeed, my riendly neighbourzor! :D

He said something really touching to me just 5 minutes ago! Its like one of the sweetest things anyone has said to me in a long time :D

[09S7G] + 08S6VEEEE NewHop3`09 4E08 SPIRIT! :[:[yufong:[:[ OG22 HC Fencing! <> No chance in hell. says:
i sure can carry you one!

[09S7G] + 08S6VEEEE NewHop3`09 4E08 SPIRIT! :[:[yufong:[:[ OG22 HC Fencing! <> No chance in hell. says:
HAHAHHAHA

[09S7G] + 08S6VEEEE NewHop3`09 4E08 SPIRIT! :[:[yufong:[:[ OG22 HC Fencing! <> No chance in hell. says:
your not fat enough to break my back yet :D

omggggg thankyou yufong. I shall jian fei, FOR YOU! :D

hahahaha. okay anyw tmr im having banana day, which means, im eating bananas for breakfast, lunch, and dinner :D

right, wish me luck! (:

wheeeeeeeeeeee. anyw kyle landry is an amazing pianist :D yurong intro-ed him to me (THANKYOU) and i totally fell in love with his music! :D the way he improvises, walao NOT TO BE MISSED! go check it out, his user is kylelandry (:

loveee.
(:

anyw mok just said gdnight, HE NEVER FAILS TO MENTION CHABA BEFORE HE SAYS BB.
(WALAOZXZXZX!)

zhenyang: bb! may chaba drag ur feet frm the end of the bed tonight! :D

ROAR :D hahahahaha. she is my best friend lor, she won't drag my feet! hope she drags urs tonight mehehehe.

Dancenight rocked, and we're all so proud of you REGINALIEW :D

Enjoy the cookies! :D lovelovelove.

tmr must write GSK essay + do chem tutorials. ahhhhh sian sunday. ):

right off to bed now :D

6V :D

Have you had one of those days, when you would feel very tired?

I'm tired, I would go. People ask, tired over what? Hmmm. I don't know exactly, it seems like a culmination of emotions, both good and bad, bitter and yet sweet at the same time.

I think of my schlwork, which is in a very shitty state. Then i get very angry at myself. So much work to do, still can enjoy and go tim's house play GH. I know its fun and I love my class and if there were no such things as exams I would spend most of my time having a good time and living life to the fullest with them. Its just, I have no self control. At all.

I wanna see people happy. I wanna be happy and have fun. But i nvr consider the dire consequences that come with negligence to hw.

I feel very angry at myself. Then after awhile the anger fades to this foz (feeling of zen, thankyou mark) where i would feel a sense of calmness and peace. though the problem still exists. its like my subconscious mind has alr accepted the problem.

I don't like this. ):

I feel very fat and lazy and very terrible. I must work hard.

Then everyone around me; my family and stuff, no one's rly being v supportive. ):

my sis says im fat, as do most people in cls haha, but i know they're joking and stuff, or maybe they want me to be slim (to my fullest potential for my own good), and while I take it in my stride most of the time and laugh it off, it's rly hurting sometimes haha. I am proud of myself, fat or not, but when people keep drilling in ur head that you're fat and that's a disgusting thing to be, you somehow grow to think that way. Each day i look in the mirror and grow very disgusted also. Aiyo, is this a sickness.

Aiyah. basically. im tired out. i need some shuteye.

anyw, im very mad with my sister's CCA seniors. YOU THINK YOU SNR THEN YOU CAN ANYHOW COMMAND PEOPLE AND BE RUDE IS IT. Normally in my sis's CCA (NCC), the snr would sms the IC for the next day's activity and go, YOU'RE THE IC, Fall in whatever...at 3pm etc etc. But this time, this new girl from the new batch in charge (sec 3s just taken over) smsed my sis without the YOU'RE THE IC. and everything. My sis asked me if it meant she was the IC. I looked at it, it totally sounded like a mass sms she would send out to everyone. Last sentence was like, I expect yall to be punctual etc.

So i got my sis to confirm with this snr, sms her like, So Mam, could i confirm with you, AM I THE IC for tmr?

And you know what this snr replied? "what do you think?"

I was totally WTF when i read it. What do you think your ass ah. ask this kind of qns. people hao xin confirm with you to avoid miscommunication, you still come and give ur juniors this kind of shit.

I would have replied, I THINK YOU ARE A BIG FAT ASS, and you shld go die.

of course cannot say tt lah.

my sis says she's forbidden to reply, some JUNIOR-SENIOR NO COMMUNICATION policy which i completely don't understand. back in rv, our ncc nvr had such a warped theory.

To this snr, whose name i rmb to be like QIAO YI or sth. My sis will probably scream at me if she reads this entry, and she'll demand that i remove/delete this post, you know why? cus she still has respect for you. and you shld really change ur attitude before not only her (the rest of the part and the sec 1s) lose respect for you. As a senior you shld know better. Don't think you're in control and you can do anything to threaten/make juniors feel stupid when they are actl CLARIFYING things with you. (WHAT DO YOU THINK? i personally think this is very rude and terrible) people. i hear my sis always talking about honour and glory. where's yours.

It's your problem you failed to be specific and incl in the sms, YOU ARE THE IC, or phrase the sms in a more personalised tone, like MAKE SURE THE PART IS PUNCTUAL (instead of: i expect YOU ALL to be punctual), and you shouldn't take it out on your juniors. I think you are a terrible, terrible person. And now my sis is very affected. She loves NCC and she respects her seniors, and you are rly just. unbelievable. Give your juniors due respect please.

alright enough of ranting. dunno what kids are doing these days.

I wrote this in a state of anger so you have to blame me for any inaccuracies. do not take it out on my sis if you read this, because it has nothing to do with her.

and so ends a post with no smilies. how rare. :/

I GET SO MAD WITH STUDYING.

Yeah that's right. I'm mad that I have to cram stuff into my head so I can get those As for the Alvls, when I most probably won't need the info to get myself a good job next time, and earn a pay sufficient to support my farmilie.

Each time I'm mugging, I ask myself, WHY AM I MUGGING?! I'm young and healthy, and I SHOULD BE SPENDING MY YOUTHFUL DAYS DOING THINGS I REALLY LOVE, enjoying that sunshine, riding a bike, BAKING COOKIES, reading my favourite book, helping the elderly.

If I die tmr, I will be a very very restless ghost cus all I have up in that fat head are brainless facts on lasers and organic chemistry, and binomial/poisson distribution, and other random facts, and I abhore the fact that I'm stuck in this viscious cycle.

I RLY DONT UNDERSTAND WHY GRADES MEAN EVERYTHING.

BECAUSE THEY DON'T!

Person A can be the smartest person with straight As, but if this person is damn cunning/shy/damn low EQ/irritable/disgusting/sick/perverse, WHAT'S THE USE OF BEING SMART, srsly.

We want people of character in Singapore, MM Lee; we want people with high moral standards and a civilised mindset. We want righteous, caring and beautiful (on the inside) people who care more about the deterioration of our planet's resources, than who gets a better score in exams. I despise elitism. I hate it that our school (to some extent lah) and schools like RJ are always acting like they are so elite. Cus results rly don't matter. I can't stand that look of arrogance from some people as they look at kids from neighbourhood schools. So what if their grades aren't as good. They prob are much better people.

I'm really sorry for the generalisations; they may not apply to all people in RJ/HC etc. but it is true, to a certain extent. if you dare say im completely wrong, you must be living in ur own bubble.

I rly hope our education system will change for the better someday. ):

Meanwhile, i go mug physics. ):

HAHAH :D

CHEM SPA today! (: Was pretty screwed cus I made many careless mistakes, but I've gotten over it now, cus its JUST 5%, and I KNOW I WILL, and CAN, do well for the remaining 80% (:

Thankyou Ms Chen and friends who comforted me (: and take care howard *big hug*

7 of us, LISYN BEEBEE MOK MARK LEON TONGZI and I headed for MARINA SQ after tt :D go lunch bowling and movie! :D WAS V V V V FUN :D Mok won the first game and I won the second! :D but rly tyco one lah! (: ANGELS AND DEMONS was rly so fantastic! :D love the plot, and tom hanks! :D and i think Vatican City is so amazing and lovely (: My Dad, Mum and sis are at GV yishun watching it now ROAR. midnite movie, so fun. ): okay so today was rly a lovely day, love my classmates, and for more details, visit my platonic lover's blog at http://platinumwinterblog.blogspot.com/

WHEEE :D

okay now i wanna do a shoutout to REGINALIEW, my hao jie mei (((:

She's MAD asst Hip Hop Head, and she's v busy with Dancenight prep ): Everyday in sch see her so tired; must drink birds' nest and brands essence of chicken. feel v sad for her. )))): But i know she's doing sth she loves, and i will support her with all my might:D

REGINALIEW! I know you probably won't see this till after DANCENIGHT 09, but yupppppp i know you'll feel it right after i click the "Publish Post" button. :D

JIAYOUUUU GIRL :D DO UR BEST, JUST 6/7 MORE DAYS, YOU CAN DO THIS:D

WE GOT YOU :D and we'll be there rooting for you during the performances :D

JIAYOU REGINA LIEW :D LOVE LOVE LOVE! ((((((:

To my besties, Chris and Yanru! :D we need to reschedule our date to go get heels :D

love you guys too! (:

JIAYOU EVERYONE WOOOOOTS! :D when you're feeling stressed, SCREAM and let it all out :D smile, and look around at all the wonderful things right by you. (:

go immerse urself in a REVERIE *smiles at markcheng*

I'm really sorry to all the strings people I know- Val, Shoukee, Chengteng! I promised you guys i'll be there for u concert, but GOLF cropped up last minute, and I really can't miss this cus my coach is going away for 2 wks and yupp I need his expertise for my upcoming test. I'm sure you guys did great nonetheless, and i loveee you guys very very much (:

Yupp recently, sth happened to 2 of my peng yous, one of whom is a classmate very dear to me, and another is a very very sweet girl who nvr fails to :D when i see her ard in sch. I'm glad you guys are fine; rmb that your friends will always there there for you guys, holding you all up when you're down, always. ((: cliche, but that's what friends are for right (: so take care *hugs*

CHEM SPA round the corner and i have not started studying. its amazing how slack ive become, and how im so perfectly okay and not guilty when im lagging in my schlwork by SO, SO much.

:X what have i become omggg. now's not the time to slack! buck up thiamjiamine!

anyw today was a rainy day and i came to sch v early. :D as did feli and mc. we went to LT3 straight, MC and I went to play piano behind the stage (lol quite screwed up piano but it was v :D all the same). played till more people came to the LT, then we exitted discreetly. (:

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. had fun throughout lessons, as we always do tgt as a cls. (: drawing smileys on lecture notes, joking, slapping each other when we fall aslp etc etc. haha sch is such fun. :D

(: yayyyyyyyyy. tmr's PE lesson, first volley volley lesson :D

One day i decided my specs were old, and that i should get a new pair. :D

One which would shine from my (fat) face, one which would glimmer under the sunlight, one which would make passers-by who got a glimpse of it stop and stare (at my specs), one which would make me proud i had myopia.

And so i told my dad.

And my dad said, sure, specs are an impt part of one's life, everything you see is through your specs. Heck, the world is beautiful cus of ur specs. So go get them :D

I skipped to JE (the same Grand Optical shop I walked into to get my first pair of specs when i was 8) to choose a pair :D

I didn't take long; the choice was obvious(:

I got this beautiful red glimmering pair. I didn't even ask about its price. It's this or nothing, i told myself, before walking home feeling all happy through the 3 days. Happy until i didnt do anything all wkend.

I waited for the call to come, the call which would tell me my baby was ready for collection! :D today it came! :D

AHHHHHH :D DAMNNNN NICEEEEEE :D I LOVEEE MY NEW SPECS :D

THANKYOU DAD :D its super ex, can rebond hair 3-4 times, cus it has this ultra thin lens with v high density or sth hahahaha :D and he still, yaaa glad you like it! (: ahhhhh i must make lots of $$ and let him enjoy life when he grows old! :D buy him his own private jet :D

WOOOOOO damn happy. (:

today we had an essay test! I HAD NO IDEA WHAT WRITING I.

hahahaha. would have frozen to death if not for markcheng's white jacket, thankyou for lending it to me, hao peng you! :D

Sicheng, someone v close to me heehee, commented that my hair looked like a shuttlecock! :D and that i now resemble a cute shuttlecock! :D hahahah though its pretty weird, she says its a compliment, so yay. :D

Briefed new badrec exco today! :D

hahahaha they seem like a very cute and nice bunch! :D jiayou okay, badrec jiao gei ni men le! (:

woooohoooooo. went home with zhiyong and talked alot! :D

took 852 towards bukit batok to take mrt to JE, met weisheng jieyang and karen on the bus! :D ahhhh the guys were sitting so they helped me carry my bag, they're rly sweet :D found out from weisheng that jieyang is actl a very vulgar guy! HAHAHA i cannot imagine cus he seems like such a typical Mr Nice-Guy! :D

Talked abit with karen also, ahhh i miss the times we had back in council in RV; disco, central ((: 28th council wooohoooo. ((((((((((((((: im glad you're doing fine girl. love love!

ahhhhhhhhh life has its way of making you :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD at the slightest things. though im super lag in all my schlwork, i will try my best to catchup :D i just watched "dont forget the lyrics", this lady called DOTTIE is amazing, she hit the $500000! :D she rejected the million $ song cus its rly too big a risk, they payoffs are totally not in her favour if she gets the song wrong. GAMES OF STRATEGY. :D hahahaha my lovely h3 which has alr ended :D *laughs at all the other people still taking h3* HAHA kidding lah, jiayou guys :D

ok woohoo, very good mood now. shall go bathe! :D

ohyaaa ms chang kai ling is now a dual citizen! :D got singaporean and msian citizenship, cool or what! :D

ohyaaa today the fishtank uncle flirted with me! :D HAHAHAHA damn funny. ask me abt it:D

assembly today! :D had this eat well live well talk. the speaker is mean and discriminating. roar. but fun :D I AM NOT FAT OKAYYY REGINALIEW HAHAH :D my BMI is only 21.7 :D

okay more than ave, but I AM PROUD OF HOW I LOOK, big butt or not! :D

WOOOOOOO. okayy such an eventful day :D

tata lovely people! (:

MAMA :D

This is very late, but I just wanted to tell you that I LOVE YOU :D very very much, to the ends of the world.

Thanks for being the crazy, whacky, sisterly and all-round fantastic mama that you are :D People tell me I'm motherly, wait till they see the mother who made me the 'mother' I am. :D You're always going wild with Clay and I, and you share all your dirty little secrets with us heeeeeheee, as we share ours with you :D you're not afraid to be open with us about SEX, and you do this better than the sch conducts sex education. You rant you complain you advise your counsel you teach you care you love.

I ENVY UR STUDENTS. All those taught by my mum, you are damn lucky. Pls be good kids and do ur hw.

Mama, thanks for putting up with all my tantrums, and everything. I often take you for granted, and sometimes I come home without even saying hello to you. I know, I suck.

I want to let you know how you much mean to me. I wouldn't be where I am today if it weren't for you.

You are everything to me. :D and while I know I must be independent someday, I dread the day you leave me and sis.

Be healthy, I want you to live long long and take care of my many many kids while I'm at work :D

I LOVE YOU MAMA. *HUGS*

Have a great mama's day, mama :D I will work hard and make you and baba the proudest parents ever :D

She'll prob freak when she sees her PICTURE uploaded on the INTERNET, free for anyone to kope and vandalise, but mama, you're great, and I want to tell the whole world just how great you are. The most beautiful mum in the world (to me).

This was taken during our KUANTAN driveaway in 08. HAHA i can't find the other pics of my mum :X anyw ahhh loves.

MAMA, WE LOVE YOU :D

HAHAHA THE BEST PARENTS EVER, MAMA AND BABA! :D Notice they are doing the APOLLO BULLBOY signs HAHAHA i swear i didnt get them to pose like this! :D Apollo FTW :D

DINNER AND DANCE :D

I LOVE MAMA :D

Have a great mother's day! :D

PS: Take care yf and zy. loveees.

AHHHHHH I just this super duper accurate FACEBOOK QUIZ, you have to to try it out too! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Jia completed the quiz "Who is your "perfect match"?" with the result Enthusiastic & Outgoing.

* OKAY GO ON TO READ THE DESCRIPTION! *

Your perfect match is someone who is witty, outgoing and enjoys life. This person is the life of the party, has a great sense of humor and lights up the room with their smile. They communicate well and have a great connection with friends, family and their co-workers. Everyone is drawn to them and there is that special shine that you see in their eyes that tells you that they don't take one minute of life for granted. This person will sweep you off your feet, tell you exactly how they feel and are not shy to hug or kiss you in public. The top traits they are looking for in a mate is someone who is open to new ideas, is eager to live life to the fullest, will openly adore them and is confident.They love adventure, the outdoors and animals and if they discover you are interested in something, they will love that too! They are keen to get to know you and will quickly fall madly in love you for your personality, your smile and even just the sound of your voice..

YES! :D

If you're a guy who fits the above description, look me up! :D

HAHAHAHAHA~ OKAY i really must catch up on my studies now :X

WOOOOO! :D

Life brings me great joy, in the most unexpected of ways.

Today is Regina's 18th year on our humble planet,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL (:
here's wishing the DUAest (second to me) girl in class a lovely yr ahead filled with the best things in life. Jiayou for DANCENIGHT, and every other thing in ur wonderful and blessed life.

Today is really any other normal day (okay other than the fact its Regina's birthday), but I was really happy. (:

More of thankful really. (:

Thankful for all the lovely people around me, my teachers, my classmates, random people around school, fac comm. (: You guys are really the love. Brightens up my day each time I see you guys. (:

I don't think I have to right to be EMO haha, cus life is really good to me :D i have all the $$ in the world to EAT as i like (okay maybe that explains my weight), i'm having fun learning and working with 25 other fantastic people. :D

Its times like these -slow down, and look at what you have beside you- when you really realise the precious things all ard you. GEMS ARE EVERYWHERE. (: Sparkling up ur life with their dazzle. (:

Life rocks srsly, I wouldn't want to live my life any other way (:

Jiayou to all those having SYF/COMPS :D you guys CAN DO IT, CMON CMON :D

loveeeee to all (: